Depression Fact Sheet

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So for a couple of years now, my family was falling apart piece by piece. I really can not cope with more. I went to therapists, doctors, but none of it helped. 've Reached the point where im suicidal. My mother has a personality disorder, and if you know what it is, its horrible ... http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/borderline-personality-disorder-fact-sheet/index.shtml. ... blames everything on me. if shes too crazy, shell hit me, throwing things at me, or most of the time CUSS me and tell me how I'm worthelss can deny that she never did anything to my father. I think she really believes shes innocent. she can turn things around so well in his mind as his to her, shes not lying. After all shes done for my family, my dad is seriously considering a divorce and every time he talks about it, she cries and screams at me and told me its my fault and I should die or be returned . It also has either a good day or bad day, good week or bad week. On bad weeks, she denies, on the carapace of good weeks to take me shopping or whatever I want to do, but now I've almost lost my love I had for her, no matter how hard I try to keep it. I have ADHD and I have trouble paying attention, I get horrible grades and Im going to college next year, and all my teachers hate me with passion. not even my friends know what is happening in my life, and if I try to tell them my mother got angry and said i cannot see them. 'm As caught in a trap. I do all day is sit in my room and listen to music. My dad was always at work, and it doesn't even try, if hes not help. after all, this depression I've got issues of violence and break windows reallly bad and i hit people, myslef and i cannot control. I have to take care of my brothers and sisters because my mother cannot do many doeesnt them with what shes going through too. they always listen to threaten suicide. but since I regularly problems of adolescence with boys and friends and everything else "fun" stuff. but why cannot i cry? I cannot cry literally nothing but the family from time to time only if it is really really really really bad. for example, today, my teacher really good left everyoen in my class crying, including the guys, except for me and my friend. we get criticized because we mourn woudlnt. and I dont know if it's just because I have a cold heart, but I could not. WFD me a friend came up with the theory that people who have lived not crying over the slightest things like that? Is this true? I just do not know how to release feelnigs more. I do not cry over guys, or whatever I feel so zombie-like and unnormal. I feel like a monster .. seriously why cannot I cry?

OMG I feel the same way.
There is nothing wrong not to cry. My parents divorced when I was 5. My stepmother has no news, like me, she burned with hot water. But my father eventually left her. Thank you God.
I lost my brother in a car accident when I was 12. My aunt and uncle died of cancer when I was 15,16.
So when my grandmother died last year. I did not cry, because I went through so much pain. I think his name is emotionally detached. this is not a bad thing. sometimes it is good for you not to show pain.

But it hurts the heart. it feels like a cruel world out there.

Remember, you have your whole life ahead of you. In a few years, you have to drive a car. Go to college. Find a job. Meet new friends who are above the animals high school mind games.

You will find a man, not a boy, a man who loves you for who you are, and care for you in a way that is deep and strong.

Do not worry. These arent the best moments of your life. Believe me, Ont. K? You have your whole life ahead of you. K?

take deep breaths and.